苏州和南京比，感觉还是南京繁华点。

小的时候去苏州很多次，都没有强烈的感觉，但是这次就不一样。

我到底也摆脱了“文盲”的身份。

无论在哪里，都能看到劳苦大众。江苏应该算是富裕的了吧，可能偏远的地方还不知道怎么样。

在感叹某某家里条件多好，某某的命好的人，都是身在福中不知福的小孩。

在美国的日子让我感觉生活都是挺单纯挺美好的，回到中国，突然感到现实压得我喘不过气来。

大家高喊移民美国的今天，我却真的想回国。真的很想。估计是从小政治思想给灌输的很好。心在人民，服务大众。

昨天看到儿童医院新建好的大楼了，大大的感叹一下。那个真是财力和实力的展现。

安徽的农民都往这里跑来看病。

 

本想回南外看看，但是感觉自己是在是混的不好。直到今天都只是我为母校而荣。惭愧地无颜见母校。算了，自己在家休养吧。

下个学期还是好好学习，干好要干的事情。毕竟人跟人都不一样。

 

终于在半年后回到了可爱的南京。这一次是离家最久的一次了吧。

一样的萧索，一样的人多，一样的灰蒙蒙。乡音一样的土。

但是这还是养育了我18年的地方。

家里的氛围和爸爸妈妈讨论的生活琐事我都感觉离我很远了。

只有回家才感到生活离我那么近。

              I did not sleep that much last night, the night before two finals. But I managed to finish my finals both in the morning and in the afternoon. By "finish", I mean I did all the problems or at least tried. I wasnt like how I was last year who can sit in the classroom till the very end of the final, checking answers over over and over again. I  turned my paper in as soon as I finished it this time, and I did not care at all what grade I would get on the final. I admit that I do want a very...very...good GPA, but I dont know why I just cannot sit in the classroom any longer. I am not sure it is a good sign or a bad sign. Maybe I am just so sick of physics and math and chemistry.

可能我天生就是个坐不住，喜欢东向西想乱想的人吧。。。

           I always feel very awkward  when people ask me why I came to LC for college. I dont think I have a very good answer, since I can doubt every possible answer that exists in my mind. If I say I came to here for a better education, then how would I have known the education here is better when I was making the choice? If I say I came to here for a new experience, then why HERE, not somewhere else, like Chicago or ...Even Canada? Both of these two answers seem to be fake and cheesy. I guess a lot of people on this campus may have their own reasons, very good and logic reasons to come to here. BUT I DONT. I could have chosen some other schools, but I did not. I feel bad that I made a choice without considering it seriouly.  ANd THIS seems happen quite often. Even though I took Logic in college and aced it, I still concluded that I am not a logical person at all and may never be. There are a lot of choices that I cannot expain how I made them. OK. I dont know why I am taking so many science classes. Do I like math, physics and chemistry this much? haha, I dont think so. If I was in a Chinese College right now, I wouldnt have chosen Math to be my major. Af first, I was lying to people that I like Math;then the more I lied, the more I magically convinced myself that I did like math. Isnt that horrible to get used to my own lie?

英文很烂。。。见谅。。。